wake up to today's new obsession. shining in your face with emerald eyes and an echo beside the conceptual love. breaking apart in the dark. living a cliche. living a love. without love. without the thousands of things i scraped from the surface of everything. caked like blood beneath my fingernails. rocking to a beat i didn't conceive. grieving the losses i never fathered. is everything you see in the black and white i lied down beside? everything in peaceful little lies. everything held up against your chest. crushing your lungs. the weight of your decisions. the weight of who you pretend to be. breaking hearts in the dark. you're a cliche.

writing paragraphs backward. watching ink pool in the dips of the curves of your body. casting graffiti into cement. carving cement into snow. caring not for proprieties. for love. for love. for love.

i watch you throw yourself from the sky. i watch you throw yourself from my eyes. i watch you hide yourself beneath and away. i watch myself grow into life.