Millstone

I like different life philosophies. Someone told me once that I was too young to have a philosophy that meant anything. I promptly told them to fuck off. Every experience that I have, every person I meet, every pulse of my heart is etching another mark into the stone, allowing me to learn something new. Any philosophy I follow comes from this belief.

What is odd is how different the philosophy I have currently adopted is from my past ideas. Tis as follows:

Highway System

My life is a single edifice. Four walls. A roof. A floor. On this landscape around me are billions of other buildings. With each experience I go through, I expand my edifice, building stories with each lesson learned. Around me and between the other buildings and I are highways. Lots and lots of highways. These highways run with cars and bikes and people and energy every day and every night without end or consequence. This highway system is life. This highway system is not my life, not your life, but life in general. My edifice, while encased within the system, is independent of the system. And, when time breaks down my building to dust, when I am nothing but a parking lot..... It won't matter. The highways around me will still run fast as if I never existed. My name will be etched in a granite slab. Nothing more and nothing less will be left behind. Those who loved me will see the granite slab, remember me hopefully, and the continue on building their structures to reach the heavens above. I could never want more than that.

One of my favorite movies called Memento has a quote: "The world doesn't disappear every time you close your eyes."

My life is inconsequential and my being is nothing but an insignificant speck in this universe. This does not scare me. It instead comforts me. I find solace in the knowledge that life will continue in spite of me and that this world is so much bigger than me.